Its gettin closer to my husband leaving no matter how much i try NOT to think of it as a countdown my heart wont let me forget, almost 3 months ago he was suposed to leave then orders got Cut so right when i convienced my heart he wasnt leaving after weeks of gettin used to the idea He got new orders so here were go again., sleepless nites catching my self watchin him play with the boys, thinking of fast a year can go by but yet how slow it is going to be without Him here., I have alot of amazing friends who are going through what i am about to and they are so strong so they let me think this anyways i love you all and no matter what happens i am here for you bc i know the day i kiss my soldier goodbye (not goodbye just later huh babe!) i will have you all by my side.
Our boys are my world when i see them i see a perfect mixture of me and brad i always replay the day dakota was born in my head when i have a converstation with him ( as much as i can with a 3yr old) I love when he says random stuff to me it makes me so proud yet so sad that my baby is growin Up. and Now thining that we have 2 lil boys running around my house is crazy Troy is such a smart/happy baby he looks me all of like were crazy sometimes im sure hearing mommy and daddy and brother talk crazy in his eyes we all do look a bit crazy.
22 yrs old with 2 kids.married and been pretty much what feels like on the other side of the world is crazy.hard. sad but being away makes me so grateful for my 3 boys and how wonderful they are
ps. I love my boys more than anything ever!!!
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