..its not a destination

..‎"Happiness is a mood, not a destination" ♥ oth
I am not good with words, I am not a poetic when i write..So speaking from my heart is all i got and that is enough for me. so the deployment is coming up around the corner and this realllly sucks. Ive decided to stay in hawaii and that was a very hard choice for us. i am not looking forward to spending christmas alone ( yes i know i have the boys trust me i so beyond thrilled to buy them so many gifts and spoiling them rotten and making it a great christmas) but i want to have my husband home with me., & lots of family and a huge dinner., but only time will tell how i deal with this..everyone keeps givin me there two cents on everything and i appreciate it but we all deal with things our own way. On a different note i am getting migranes all the time now., so my wonderful hubs had been lettin me rest which is a nice change. so he has 4 days left on leave and were planning lots of things in 4 days then just a couple days and he deploys..the days are getting shorter and time is slipping away from me. i reallly hate this.

..its november., in 1 day ..its a month

Five hundred twenty-five thousand
Six hundred minutes,
Five hundred twenty-five thousand
Moments so dear.
Five hundred twenty-five thousand
Six hundred minutes
How do you measure, measure a year?

In daylights, in sunsets, in midnights
In cups of coffee
In inches, in miles, in laughter, in strife.

In five hundred twenty-five thousand
Six hundred minutes
How do you measure
A year in the life?

How about love?
How about love?
How about love? Measure in love


heard this song today and it keeps playin in my head over and over!!

heres some pics from arkansas

..my fav holiday

Halloween is right around the corner i am so stocked!! tonite we decorate the outside of the house but we didnt do much bc were kinda hidden and not many ppl see our hosue haha but we did it for the kids:) and they loved!! I love my family!






So troy is starting to stand by himself, and today we thought he would take his first steps but nope haha but were gettin so close:) Dakota tried helping him walk today but it didnt quit work since troys almost as tall as kota haha:) I love them.

....when Friends become Family

Chettto Face..did i mention i love this face!!!



Distanace can put a strain on friendships but its funny bc i think me and haley have been through so much in our friendship she is like my family now no matter how mad we get were still friends at the end of the day. no matter how long we go without being attached at the hip we act like we never were apart. Shes a great friend and i adore her:) and my our kids act like best friends which is soo cute to watch. haley your an amamzing person i love you to death!! Today was such a good day!! Ugh still thinking about how many days i have left with my hubs and to a normal person the number wouldnt be so bad but to me its a horrible reminder of how many days til hes gone for 365 days!! BOOO!!., also at the "frg" meeting i was known as the girl with the punk hair (hints the red in my hair) doesnt make me a punk makes me a "betty" Im me., i dont follow crowds and i love my own style!! and i love that i have my own:))




all 3 boys :))

Tristan watching cartoons with Brad

Troy outside with brad today:))

The boys are like Bff's now even T said so

i got roses toooooooday!! ilove mt HUBBBBYS

..I did it!!

i got in a wreck about 2 yrs ago or around that and i have been afraid to drive here hawaii bc the traffic is HORRIBLE!! anyways i have been driving latley just not to far, welll TONITE., i drive a good distance and i made it there and made it back, yes i know LAME right well not really when it becomes your Fear a True Fear, BUt im gettin better so proud of myself..Latley ive had alot going on, had my dental work. GOt a new hair Cut. The kids are Going wild lol. as i posted earlier troys starting to stand alone, Dakota thinks hes a grown man haha..and my Husband Deploys soon. So i think for the rest of this weekend between my photoshoots ill relax and enjoy his company and take the kids out!!!

killing time at the theater

went to the movies tonite with my Good friend and had a blast, A girls nite out is much needed her hubs is Deployed right now, shes such a strong women. and very beautiful and a strong momma!! I am so proud of you Haley!! ily girl and remember im always here for you!!


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i love my man!! and my new hair!!
been through hell && back with this lady!!

& He stood

So i went to the park the other day with a friend of myne and while we were watching the Older Kiddos Play (by older i mean a 2yr old and 3yr old)LOl.Troy stood By himself., a couple times && for awhile at a time., SO yay!!! Talk about a proud Momma., These days seems like the Boys are Growing up so fast, dakota is so independent and not afraid to speak his lil Voice i love it. He so loving and caring to His lil Brother! I love my Boys!!!










thanks jessica for taking these photos, Troy spilt smthing down his shirt, needless to say after such a great dayy were much needed baths:))

...Orders

I never thought the day would Come. Like maybe it was a dream, If i pinch myslef hard enough ill wake and ill not be expecting to hear that Hes gettin his oders to leave soon , when is sooon...Ya idk i just now that the orders are here!! and I am not happy so that countdown i dont want to happy is about to happen again., The good think about me and my Hubs is we have a great Relationship we bring out the best in eachother., So this Next yr will be hard ..Very hard! but knowing hes coming home is going to an amamzing Feeling:)) and Our boys are so proud of there daddy solider as Kota calls HIm:) So i LOVE my Men":) I have an amamzing family amamzing Kiddos and This momma B! couldnt be anymore happier:! If i am This emotinal about orders Let the tears roll the day He leaves!! Eh??


I may be Bias But i have the best looking Family :)